Part of me

hahaHAHAha..
i'm BACK!!
lawrls..
sien la..
now sing my bro com again..
past few days,,
really damn stressed..
&iuseawrongwaytorelievestress?
hmm.now i stop using small small words liaos..
cause CY complain cant read worx..
nvm...use small world lyk tis barhhs..
frm passt few das till now..
from get back our test paper, result
&opting for course..
WAS DAMN Fcukin
stressed..
till i dn even have the energy to
thnk..
on the day when we got back our result...
i was get back my math..

AND the result is?
___________

BEEP BEEP!!!
worse den car crash..
i FAILED..

Wo bu Ji GE
Lawrls?
dunno malay&indian how to sae..
lalala..
i wanna cry..
but i noe i cant..
i have been tellin my friends not to coz wad
,atters the most is the process
whether you got put in ur hardwork..
SO?
i went arnd comforting ppl hwo was goin to cry..
BUT?
i still cant control but burst into tears..
when on the phone wif my momma..
when u heard her voice,
guilt fills my heart..
noe'in tat the result hurts her badly..
&the coz of result
was becoz i slack the first half year..
Thinking back..
nth really occupied my memorise of

the first half year in 2C..
all was..
SLEEP
SLACK
TALK
SHOUT
PON CLASSES
30MINS To 1HOUR TOLIET BREAK
EARPIECES ON 24/7
SO?
conclusion is..
NTH MUCH..
LAWRLS.
flunkin every subject..
this is my bro's piece of advice;
You gain sumthing
you lost sumthing..
quite true huh?
LAWRLS..
toda i cry again sia..
i really got

caught between my teacher&mybro..
or shuld i sae..Myself&mybro..
i dun wanna take A math..
but was sumhow force to..
i took art too..
will i pass or fail?

since i mostly slash becoz of stress..
SEC3?
will thr be more..
especially whr my frends're not by my side to stop it
(though they cant even they are thr sumtyms)

bt wad will happen?
am i worying too much?
u i feel lyk crying every moment..?
y?
y i keep tellin ppl tat i thought of killing myself?
i really feel tat i will do it,,
bt juz simply lack of courage?
or when i got the courage,,
i wont kill myself bt go on to
overcome every stress coming up next?
FUCK..
wad shuld i do?
i dunno..
can i survive till i grow up?
or till wad i had thought b4 to commit sucide at the age of 18 or 21?
will i? will i not?
hmm..
i DUNO&dunwanna TO CARE..
flunk it man..

To my FRIENDS
&sorryguys,i noe you guys noe
it when i did it.
&i feel so guity tat i do it again
despite of so much promised i had made.
&i got nth much to protest bout it
cos i noe i am at fault
&i want you guys to noe
its really my way to de-stressed
&its a way i think tat it can stop me
from KILLiNG myself..
&pls allowed me..
&understand thr is one day
i will stop it..
&the scars will remind me
wad i have done wrongly
&i will become a strong girl
&it will be the day i stop slashing
SORRY GUYS..UNDERSTAND&ACCEPT PLS.

Kae..
hmm..
my eyes now red red durhh..
i think the porblem lies with the new
contact lens used..
damn red and pain pain sia..
lyk got a coating of thin gray smoke
on my eyes..
shit..
my leg numb..
sien...
now got lyk electri shock shock the
feelin..
FUCK.. SHIT..
OWWWW...
trying not to move my leg..
AWWWW..
HELP ME!!
SAVE ME!!
#$%##$@#
getting better lerhs..
HEHE..
MUAGAHAHAHAHa
ART?
how to do?
sien..
nvm..lets toss the the next year course aside..
Dunwanna sae bout it lerhhs..
jus addin mre stress to my stress?
i will grow became a strong child..
i will not cry easily liaos..
let me end here barhhss..
Time is lost,
changes is made every second..
wonder wad you have done
during the Last min..
Make you lost another mins