Part of me

I not yet post my china trip post..

its still a draft..
got many things to say..

but dunno how to put it..
and it has been along tym
since the last post(30th oct)
hmm?
actually,
i feel tat i am more futher from

my frens lerhhss..

468?
y i feel tat far from you guys?
dunno y?
next year might be worse lerhhs..
and i feel tat,
thr is no use to buck up

to hold,
or shuld i sae pull this

friendship tgt..

we think differently afterall..

you guys dint change,,

but its me, who change..
&IKNOWIT..

sadded

but to accept it..
but to be happy tat
you guys are not drifting apart

lyk how i was now..
'/DRIFTINGTONOWHEREx/3
nonetheless,,

next year i will change mre..
i was now even doing things i
shuden have start..

bt i have started it,
bt not yet atdic..
hmm..
if you noe the ending of sumthing?
will you still do it?
lyk me?
have been thinking..

i alrdy noe,

at the end..

i will died..

wad fer living now?

living in order to wait?
wait fer mre saddening things?
or wait fer death?
y am i back to the emo state i used to b?
i feel sooner or later i will break
promised agn..

mayb after next year B'girls..

i can do it without
any worry..
coz nth can threaten me lerhhs..
i feel lyk giving up life now..
coz i am tired..
y arnd me..
only me tired?
depress arhh..

i am too weak to live
but

too strong to let go life